There are a lot of things we could say is the reason. History, unfinished business, that constant sense of “what if?” and wondering how things could have turned out differently.
But really its none of those things that have made me feel the way I do. Maybe at first it was what drew me in, but not now. None of that was what really opened my eyes to this.
The truth is that really, you saved me. You came back into my life right when I needed you and became the best friend I could have asked for, and when I found out there was more than that, and I told you again and again that I wasn’t there yet, that I couldn’t be that person you wanted me to be, you stayed anyway.
You loved me in all the ways I needed to be loved then, the ways I couldn’t love myself and the ways I’m sure you wanted me to love you, even when I said I couldn’t. You never asked of me what I didn’t have to give, always understood why I couldn’t be what you deserved. Right to the end you fought my corner even when it was you who I was hurting.
You are the best person I have ever known. You are beautiful in all the ways a person can be. I don’t think I’ll ever fail to be awed by your goodness and your understanding and your overwhelming ability to just love. You were there for me when I needed you most but could offer you nothing in return, and you never expected me to give you all those parts of me that just weren’t there anymore.
And that’s what made me fall for you. The fact you never asked me to.
1970s:
There’s things that never will be right I know,
And things need changing everywhere you go,
But til we start to make a move to make a few things right,
You’ll never see me wear a suit of white.
(Man In Black - Johnny Cash, 1971)
I met a woman, she had a mouth like yours,
She knew your life, she knew your devils and your deeds,
And she said “Go to him, be with him if you can,
But be prepared to bleed.”
(A Case Of You - Joni Mitchell, 1971)
Life had just begun, but now I’ve gone and thrown it all away,
Mama, I didn’t mean to make you cry,
If I’m not back again this time tomorrow, carry on,
Carry on, as if nothing really matters.
(Bohemian Rhapsody - Queen, 1975)
Mirrors on the ceiling, and pink champagne on ice,
She said “We are all just prisoners here of our own device”
And in the masters chamber, they gathered for the feast,
They stab it with their steely knives but they just can’t kill the beast.
(Hotel California - The Eagles, 1977)
You had a temper like my jealousy, too hot, too greedy,
How could you leave me when I needed to possess you,
I hated you, I loved you too,
Bad dreams in the night, they told me I was going to lose the fight,
And leave behind my wuthering, wuthering, wuthering heights.
(Wuthering Heights - Kate Bush, 1978)
2010s:
Friday, friday, gotta get down on friday,
Everybody’s looking forward to the weekend,
Partying, partying, yeah! Partying, partying, yeah!
Fun, fun, fun, fun.
(Friday - Rebecca Black, 2011)
